I want to share with you all a few things I have learned and experienced being 29 and SINGLE.
It seems every time I log into Facebook, someone is getting married or having a baby. I will not lie, there have been nights I have cried and asked God. “What is wrong with me? Am I not worthy of love? Am I not worthy of a family?” But I had to check myself and stop crying to God about what I don’t have and start thanking God for the situations he saved me from. I am single because I needed to allow God to really work on me. I needed to grow and figure out what God placed me on this earth to do. In order to do that, I needed to be intentional. What I mean by that is I needed to be Intentional about strengthening my relationship with God. I needed to be intentional about finding what it is, God is calling me to do. I refuse to settle. I do not want to live my life playing it safe.
Trust me, I am not perfect. Not even close to being perfect. I am still in the process of allowing God to heal me and direct me into my calling. I began to reflect on my past relationships asking myself, “Where did I go wrong?” I discovered, In all my relationships I made one glaring mistake, which was putting a man before God and myself. I stopped attending church so often, I stopped doing the things that I loved. I allowed men to treat me like Silver when God says I am GOLD. I have been cheated on, lied to, mentally and physically abused. To the public eye I have always been a strong woman, but behind closed doors, I suffered. My self-worth was not where it should have been and I allowed a man to determine my worth. HUNNY if you do not get anything else from this blog, understand this: No one else can determine your worth. You teach people how to love and care for you!
I also decided to take it a step further, I decided to stop having sex. Yes, it sucks. I have even broken down and cried, but it has been the best decision I have ever made. I needed to start loving myself, taking care of myself and realize I am GOLD.
Ladies, you do not realize how much of yourself you are giving away when you lay down with someone who is not worthy of you. You are a Queen and everyone should not have access to your greatness.
For now I wait patiently for my King.
In order for my man to find me, He must find God first!
Until next time, Continue to “Sit Pretty”
Miss Monica B